I’m sitting here eating and just thinking…..just trying to sort out these thoughts and where exactly they are trying to take me, and i can only escape them so much. Come to think of it…it’s like a shark which has to keep swimming or else it dies. Well with me if i stay busy and my mind occupied i won’t think of all these things…but I’m human and we all stop at some point or another and that frustrates me more than the actual thoughts……such great things have been happening…and trust that i am happy….but only one department is still empty…and that where all the shoulda, woulda, couldas come into play and oh how annoying they are….
….but really was i that stupid?
I mean come on! Was i so scared that i really couldn’t take a step through a great door of possibilities?
In the end i don’t understand why my mind thinks i need to be thinking of these things what is it trying to get me to see? I mean i could read it as my heart telling me i should try …..but my brain knows that wouldn’t be right, the same way it told me waiting for someone that’s not around wasn’t the smartest thing lol…. its best to stick with my mind and just let things be……for now.
YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT LIFE HAS WAITING AROUND THE CORNER…..